I can’t believe it is 2007. It seems like only yesterday, I was writing about my desire to NOT make New Year’s Resolutions in 2006…Now, I am looking back at those non-resolutions and the past year – and apart of me is amazed at the things I have done – and a part of me is disappointed in myself in the things that I have not done.
I guess it’s easier – as self critical as I am – to first look at what I have not done. I haven’t done as good a job as I would have liked in taking care of myself. I am about 15 pounds heavier than I should be and if I were the kind of girl to make confessions, I would tell you that my blood pressure is a little on the high side. I believe that….if I will work harder at being self disciplined, I can once again drop those pesky pounds and change my size 10 jeans for a size 8 once again. Dropping those 15 pounds will involve exercising regularly again – and eating a little better. Combining those two things will help that unspoken blood pressure thing as well.
Changing habits involves a lot of self discipline, but sometimes it also can involve having someone help you along the way. I have renewed my relationship with my personal trainer – and he has agreed to hold me accountable by working out with me multiple times per week – and looking over my eating diary.
Oh. Did I mention that? I have succeeded in the past losing weight and I know that in order to do so, I must control what I put into my body. It isn’t a matter of food combination or eating protein vs. carbs – it is a matter of calories in combined with calories expended through exercise. There is no better way to control my intake than holding myself accountable by writing down every morsel and every sip. I hold myself accountable and as back-up, I review my food diary with him.
I also have a girlfriend that has some similar goals, so I know that I will not be on my path alone. It’s amazing how lonely you can be when forcing yourself to change habits. She and I are going to help each other, so I will have someone to go on this journey with – and that is comforting as well.
Life is so much better when you travel it with a friend. Besides, I have a goal… involving a swimsuit and my 39th birthday. ;-)
I do have one other area of my life that needs some work. I have written many times about it here in my column ( November for example) – and that is my lack of self discipline when it comes to my writing. I am writing here and there – but not as much as I should. The only way to truly work at my craft is to write daily. Too often when I let days or weeks pass without trying to put more together than sentences in emails, I find myself struggling to form sentences – let alone paragraphs.
I have some rough ideas on how I am going to make this happen – and while a portion of it involves working on my environment, a bigger portion has to do with my own self discipline.
It’s frustrating – to have so many ideas rolling along through my head and not be able to get them out. I need to make it a goal this year to work through the things that are blocking me in my writing and combine it to following the advice of Nike’s Ad agency: Just DO it.
I've mentioned many times - and i know that as a writer, I tend to be very self critical and overly analytical about my own shortcomings. But when I look at myself and my life, I DO see many positive things. I have met some amazing people in the past year – and my business ventures are more successful than I would have ever imagined.
Of course, there’s that goal of the swimsuit and my 39th birthday there…. My life is very blessed – and my karma is nice and clear.
I'm just hoping to improve things so that my soul is a little bit more in line with my karma. Balance, baby...that is what 2007 is about....